Summertime

With less then a month left before I pack up what I need for my next year at the prestigious Spelman College, I must take time to reflect on all the things that have happened this summer. I was blessed to be able to travel so much this summer. In addition to that I was also able to relax and to get a good sense of self. I got to explore my future and where i see myself going. I talked with professionals and even have figured out all the different things that i want to do. I am so glad that I have many people that love me and support me in everything I do.

When I came home I got to enjoy the luxury of waking up late, and mom's Saturday breakfast pretty much everyday of the week. I really like going to school so far away because when i come back I am truly appreciated.

Now on to the trips that I mentioned before. I have already been to West Virginia, Rochester, NY, and Chicago but this weekend I am lucky enough to be able to go to Miami. I am truly grateful and glad for all the trips I have enjoyed. Visiting family is something that we all need to do.

Now I must take time to acknowledge the Late King of Pop, Michael Jackson. I remember MJ as a wonderful and outstanding individual. He is not only a pop icon but a wonderful son father brother and friend. In my eyes he is one of the greatest that ever lived. Every time i think about it I cant believe that's it true.

A New Day

I blogged yesterday because I was so overwhelmed with emotions, but I also forgot to update blog spot and all my readers on my current situations. I am on vacation still of course, and return to school in late August, but currently I am working as a Buffalo City Court Clerk, in the DV Court. I am looking for another part time gig, but I think that this is going to be it for the summer of 09.

I completely and utterly miss everyone who has touched my life in Atlanta. I cannot wait to get back, I am enjoying all the time I spend here in Buffalo with my family and devoted friends. I have also been enjoying the home cooked meals, spending money that's not mine, i.e. grandpa and mom, and even not having to sleep on a "x-l twin" bed and the best part, having my own room!

There are so many things that I have accomplished since i been home and they include getting a job, receiving my license, and BLOGGING AGAIN! lol I have researched and created a plan for my life, including the free time, which there is a lack of. I truly believe that The best is Yet to come!

Do you Exist?

As I sit here listening to Chrisette Michele sing her unreeling song, Notebook, I sit here and wonder...Do you even Exist?.....In a world where X's and O's mean Hugs and Kisses, and where [143] means I love you, Do you Exist?...I know you are out there somewhere but will we ever find each other, will it be the right time in both of our lives to get together and if so will we have the same views on everything. Will you finish my sentences and help me with the dishes when you know I'm tired from work and cooking dinner, and rub my feet just because and remember the first day you got to hold my hand...or kiss me after we have been married for 10 years, and as I go on i have to ask myself....Do you exist? or has society and those around me helped me create this perfect man, that just doesn't exist.....

I have figured out some things in life on my own and I believe this is one of them......HE DOESN'T!...or more or less he does, but he doesn't have everything on the list and that doesn't mean the list has to disappear but it has to become flexible, like the "rubber pencil" from the 6th grade, it has to seem to bend and that is as equal to you molding that man and create a loving atmosphere not only for your relationship but for your children to come and the legacy that you will leave behind.

Now that I have gotten on my future man, I have to talk about myself, because believe me I know I'm not perfect. I'm busy and demanding and want everything to go my way, but the man that can calm me down, help me change for the better and make me feel GOOD...[all over] is the one.period. Everyone has somebody out there for them, but only some of us will be lucky enough to find them, and even fewer will be able to grow old and love them more then they love themselves. Love is more than a four letter word. Its a way of life.