The Distance between Our Hearts

The Picture above is of Stockholm, Sweden. In 2006 I had the pleasure of visiting this blessed city and I enjoyed every minute of it. The air was clean and the people were very friendly. I was able to talk to my mom sometimes and my friends sometimes due to the Internet access in the hostel I was staying in, but before I go to in dept on my trip and the accommodations let me get to the topic of today's blog: Understanding.

If I have told you I LOVE YOU then that never stops unless u have hurt me. It is important to remember that MY LOVE doesn't fade. those who have made an impact on my life or the life of those that I love are very important to me. I also understand that because I was a little busy my first semester of college it was hard for me to juggle family, friends, work and schoolwork.

The first thing I realized was that I had to make a plan. I started to plan my days and weeks which is helping me to get on a better path of juggling everything at once. Moving onto campus was a great day but it was also symbolic. I was packing up my "world" and moving it to a different location, but I had to realize that all I tool with me as stuff. I left behind my love and most of my heart. My home will always and forever be Buffalo, NY., but currently I live in Atlanta and I love it.

the one thing that I didn't realize was the impact that my changes had on the relationships I had with my friends. It is hard for me to even predict that my emotions and ideas toward our friendship had changed.

Because I make new friends does that mean I have dismiss the others?
Because I am now apart of a sisterhood of women and have grown close to them does that mean that the young ladies I grew up with cannot be apart of my life?
Do they feel like I have abandoned them?
Because I don't call everyday do you feel like I don't care about you anymore?

I cannot answer some of these questions because they are designed with my best friends in mind. The past conversations that I have had about the different hostility between us and the ideas of me being different since I came down here or because I have different friends that I have gotten close to means that I am no longer close to them which is COMPLETELY WRONG!!!

I LOVE MY BEST FRIENDS.....and yes its plural. MY BEST FRIENDS ARE JUST THAT. And because I have made other friends it doesn't mean that they have taken your place. I can become close with other people and still love you the same and more. My location has nothing to do with my emotions or even my ideas about my friendships. I still love my friends but apparently I have been living in the wrong world because I have changed and there is hostility between my friendships and to let everyone know, I have no problems with anyone. I love my best friends Deidre, LeahMarie and Tashanna. I put them in the order in which they came into my life.

Deidre or Deidra as many know her is my best friend since the third grade. We have been through a lot together and even though I talk to her all of five times out of the year she is aware that she is my best friend and that will never change.

LeahMarie is my Ace. She is my Earl. She is my bestie and that will never change. I will always be her bestie too. She loves me and we have the email plan now so we can keep up on our current events.We have known each other since dance but were reunited in the sixth grade on the cheese bus....and been besties ever since.

Tashanna is my bestie that I have known for less time but is my bestie none the less. I'm guessing since we didn't have a strong foundation she didn't feel like I was the same since I was not calling her everyday, but like I said, I LOVE YOU.

Wrapping this up before it gets too long I have to say this..............


NO matter where I am or how long it has been since I talked to you..........I still love you like I did the last time I saw you. The fact that we don't talk doesn't mean that I care less it just means I don't have enough time to call you, mommy,grandpa,my cousin Joel, and my other family that may have called me that day.

Love that can stand the test of time means something. Keeping that in mind I end with this: Love is a battle of time, winding down into one beat, in your heart.

ONE LOVE .